It’s been a minute…
I haven’t written in a bit, because nothing too exciting has been happening lately. However, that’s exciting to me!
If you’re here for a big life update, or a funny story, I’m so sorry. You’re welcome to move along and read a different post, because this one is quite boring. It’s mainly an exercise to get me back into the blogging mindset, so I can move forward and write more later.
So, here’s the boring stuff, if I haven’t lost you yet!
I’m really enjoying just being home and not having to worry about homework. Until the beginning of May, I was still having horrible nightmares about missing entire classes and failing all of college. And this is AFTER I officially graduated. Not so fun. Thankfully, I haven’t had one in a few weeks.
I wasn’t able to attend graduation in person for a number of reasons (including a 2.5 month long sinus infection), which really affected me negatively. I still don’t feel like I’ve graduated yet, but eventually I’ll be able to remind myself that I earned a BACHELOR’S DEGREE in COMMUNICATIONS. I really can’t fathom the weight that carries right now. I’m too close to the situation, I guess.
My mental health is getting better. Every day brings new challenges and new victories. Getting off of the crazy-high doses of meds I had been on for 3 (give or take) years has been the best decision I could make. I think my brain chemicals had been messed with so much that it was just time for a reset. Now, I occasionally take one of the meds if I have a bad panic attack, but that’s only happened twice since coming off of the other meds. I’m not at 100%, but I do feel about 70%, after having been at maybe a 5.2% for the last year.
Depression is still depression. That one’s a bit harder for me to get a handle on, but that’s one of the reasons why I’m living with my parents. And my doggo, and the kittens. I’m in an environment with far less judgement, surrounded by those who love and support me. And help pick me up on bad days. (And kitty snuggles help a LOT.)
Work is alright. I’m not in the “I’m enjoying what I’m doing” phase just yet, but I am getting there. Working for my brother’s company on all Media/Advertising/PR fronts is a challenge, since I’m not familiar with pest control, but I’m getting there! If there’s one thing my time as a News Media student taught me, it’s how to be a jack of all trades, master of none. I want to do more editing, but I don’t quite have an avenue to do so. Maybe one day!
My social media management business is slowing right now, but that’s okay. There is so much more I need to learn and teach myself about doing it in the real world. I learned a lot from school and from the professors who helped me gain as much experience as possible, but there’s so much more out there.
I did kind of lose my joy in the work after I finished my internship last year and lost the job opportunity I had originally been promised. I’m not really harboring bad feelings here, but it was a hard setback in my plans. (But that’s a longer story, which I won’t disclose openly on the internet. It’s nunya. “What’s nunya?” “Nunya business, that’s what!”)
That’s kind of all I have for you right now. I don’t even have a photo to put with this…
So, if you were hoping for something amazing, I’m sorry to disappoint. I’m hoping to get back into writing for fun, so I plan on writing more often.